It’s been a crazy week!
This week has been a roller coaster and I sure hope the next 8-9 months aren’t like this. My anxieties have been off the chart but I think it’s more than just anxiety but more normal worries and concerns of a new mother. The closer it got to my appointment with the OBGYN the more upset and nervous I got. I swear, I thought she was going to tell me that I’m fat, unhealthy and already killing my baby…and I just don’t know what to do with that. Also, I just have lots of days or chunks of days that I just feel pretty crummy and I’m not sure why yet.
I told everyone I was pregnant. Yes, it’s early and there is a chance that something could go wrong. Everyone has been so loving and excited. I justify this because it’s literally a miracle that I actually even got pregnant.
Will I be crushed if something happens with this baby? Yes. But I will also have hope that I can actually get pregnant…something I’ve not really had before.
I’m actually not at all nervous about this pregnancy being a problem. I would have thought I would continue to be scared of possible problems now that I finally got pregnant, mostly miscarriage. I really am not. I feel good about this and am now excited to see where this goes.
I am pregnant:
In addition to the positive test strips, the confirmation from my PCP, feeling tired a lot and frequent urination, I’ve also started having some breast tenderness and dizziness. I have a little pressure in the lower abdomen. It’s not like cramps and it’s kind of dull…apparently my uterus is growing or changing. I really don’t know but it’s not an awesome feeling.
Meeting my OBGYN:
I found the best OBGYN that was accepting new patients and covered by my insurance. It’s somewhat new to me to be able to find and pick my own doctors, so I’m relying on their profile and reviews from patients from a variety of sites to pick an office and doctor. I also prayed. It totally paid off.
I was so scared as my appointment time drew closer. I was doing my best to not think about all the awful things that could happen when I met the OBGYN…well, that time I met with the NP…and I was immediately settled. Literally everyone was so nice and calming. Even the waiting room was comfortable. And, then I went in with the Medical Assistant, got weighed and was handed some reading materials to read while I waited for NP Evans.
I tried to read it but my mom and I kept talking. I ended up getting about 2 pages read before NP Evans walked in. The paperwork was a nice distraction but basically conflicted with Keto and a few other things I hold strongly. So I was geared up to really talk about what she thought and was actually prepared to do some doctor shopping after the appointment.
I’m going to stop rambling. I asked a million questions and NP Evans had all of the answers…except for how far along I am. That was a bummer but not so bad. She said I can keep doing Keto, taking most of my supplements and she gave me some prenatals to add (about 8 samples….I do love free!), order for a bunch of bloodwork and an ultrasound for sometime next week.
My biggest disappointment was that I didn’t get to do the ultrasound that day and I have to leave the building to do the bloodwork…but it’s literally on the other side of the parking lot, so it was a nice walk with some sunshine. It’s been 4 days and I still don’t have the results of the bloodwork. NP Evans thinks I may be 6 weeks along now and to be safe she wanted me to wait 1 more week to get the ultrasound since she doesn’t want me to be disappointed if they can’t see much so early. Also, I was terrified I could have an ectopic pregnancy but she said she highly doubts it because if it were I would be in a tremendous amount of pain, which I am not feeling. In addition to that huge relief, she said I’m not high risk. I’M NOT HIGH RISK!! Apparently after getting my family history my only factor is my age (I’ll be 39 when the baby is born) and it was pretty low on the chart actually.
I’m so excited to go for the ultrasound. Now my biggest concern, which doesn’t cause heart palpitations, is that I’m hoping for only 1 baby and not multiples. My husband is hoping and praying for twins. It runs in the family and I guess it’s “my turn” according to my mom. It would be a lot to handle learning to be a mom with two, but I will just be so happy to have all of my children (one or more) be healthy.
At this point I’ve chosen to keep following my supplement regime until I hear otherwise from my OBGYN and to keep following keto. This is the healthiest I’ve ever been and I don’t want to mess it up and the change cause a problem for little Baby Bear. I’m trying to keep an open mind about all of this, but am willing to have logical conversations with the doc that will help guide me throughout this process.
I realize I have weird, unconventional ideas about a lot of things. I am okay with that. I am not okay with someone telling me I am wrong and leaving it at that. There needs to be discussion, research, common sense, and a plan. So far I have a plan that is flexible and I am comfortable with it. We will see how it goes as it’s still so early on.
My anxiety has been a bit of an issue this week. I recently finished my last step of weaning off of my prescribed medication with the support of my doctor. However, I no longer have the same insurance or doctor. I don’t even have a psychiatrist yet and I think I need to work on this very soon. Plus, changing the medication tends to increase my issues for a short time. I expect a few more weeks of anxiety issues…anything beyond that and I will be concerned for real.
I wrote that section before I actually met with the OBGYN. I did make a few changes, but for the most part everything is the same. I’m adding calcium and a prenantal supplement and removing Dr. Berg’s Estrogen Balance with DIM and Adrenal and Cortisol Support because there are a few things in the blends that just aren’t so great for babies. I’ll survive.
I’m realizing this miracle may not be as magically and majestic as I thought it would be. I kind of feel cruddy and tired. I do have some great days/moments and I’m trying to capitalize on it as best I can. It doesn’t mean I’m not happy that I’m pregnant, but man, I was so tired we’ve literally eaten the same meal 3 times already in a row. (Good thing there were leftovers!) I also want to learn more about the different options I have regarding giving birth…is it too soon to look into this? I’m in research mode to try and focus on what would be good for the baby, the various options for medical professionals and birthing locations, etc. Oh, and I’ve already started harassing my friends about things like the best cribs/baby beds, strollers and car seats, and I even found a few local baby resale stores and also have discovered some very interesting cloth diapering systems that I’m eager to explore.
I promised that I would share what I ate this week, so here it is:
- Small amounts of coffee with pumpkin pie spice sweetener, almond/coconut cream half and half, and a small pinch of salt
- Avocados with pink himalayan salt
- Scrambled eggs with salsa and guacamole
- Chicken wings made in my air fryer (paprika, salt and pepper seasoning) with homemade ranch dip
- Taco salad (giant salad with taco meat)
- Sausage McMuffins sans muffin from McDonald’s
- Mostly veggies and meat (steak and broccoli, salmon and asparagus, chicken and cauliflower risotto, etc)
- Shrimp and avocado lettuce tacos
- Hot dogs with sauerkraut, mustard and sugar free ketchup
- Quest Protein Cookies (peanut butter and chocolate chip cookie)
- Meat and cheese tray with almond crackers and garlic mustard aioli (sometimes this is a meal)
- Siete Sea Salt Tortilla Chips (low carb but not perfectly keto) or Quest Protein Nacho Tortilla Chips
- Salted nuts (cashews, almonds, macadamias)
- Epic salt and pepper pork rinds
- Lily’s Creamy Milk chocolate bars…just a few squares at a time because it makes me gassy when I have too much
I think I should probably make a plan about what to eat for the upcoming week. It makes it easier for me to eat well and not waste food or resources. I wrote about meal planning and it has a downloadable document that you can fill in, if you’d like. I actually do use this template personally and find it’s totally helpful!
What did you eat this week? Is there anything you’d like to share about how your week is going in general, what you’d like to do different in the future or have questions about?
If you found this posting to be helpful, you may want to check out a few other recent postings:
- My personal combination to get pregnant
- Learn more about Keto Basics and how to get started
- Dealing with my anxiety
Have a wonderful rest of the week! If you found this to be helpful, please feel free to share this posting with others. I share my experiences in hopes to help others in similar situations as myself. Please remember, I am not a medical professional and this is just my experiences and feelings.
Check out KetoBaby, Week 2: Where’s My Magic? to learn about how it’s really going. Don’t worry, it isn’t all bad!